12.28.2008

Countdown Suckiz: Questions?

This might end up being my last blog post of 2009, and I start it off with theft. Stoled it from Spoken.Word.

Hah. Enjoy kiddos!


10 Things you wish you could say to ten different people:

1. I wish we could still be friends, but I can't condone what you've done. I really want to punch you in the neck.
2. When will you start making better decisions? I'm your friend, but what good am I if you never heed my advice?
3. I have nothing against you...but don't give me a reason to f*&* you up.
4. I wish I had one more chance to love you like I've always wanted to.
5. You think I'm on your level, but I see on such a higher pedestal than I.
6. What did I do wrong? Do you understand how disrepectful you were to me when you literally dropped out of my life?
7. I worry for you so much, and there's nothing I can do about it.
8. I'm stronger than you think I am, but you will never see this. And that sucks.
9. I love you like hell, and I want to be your husband, but the aspect of marriage scares the hell out of me in ways you wouldn't believe/understand. And I'm trying to shut that voice up.
10. I wish I never lied to you, because you've done so much for me. And amidst my lie, you helped me try to rub that part of my life out. Thank you, and I will make you proud.

9 Things about yourself:

1. Probably the most defining thing about me (aside from my faith in Christ) is the simple fact that: I write.
2. I am a friend to the end, and many times, that is my Achilles' heel.
3. I have recently caught a rare skin disease. Unfortunately, there is no cure and no one knows where it came from or what causes it. Fortunately, it is so rare and stupid, it's akin to cooties. Meaning, it does nothing but look icky and itch from time to time. And by nothing, I mean, it's not lethal in the furthest stretch of the imagination.
4. I love my family, and I can't wait to start my own.
5. I yearn to learn, and it usually happens by either revelation or trial and error. A part of me wouldn't rather it any other way.
6. I love and live for good music.
7. I think I may have ADD. Or ADHD.
8. I'm a city kid, through and through.
9. I don't want college to end. But I'm ready to get busy.

8 Ways to win my heart:
1. If you don't like hugs, we'd probably have a hard time.
2. Listen to ME/Don't judge ME.
3. Have some hella good taste in music.
4. Appreciate the performing arts.
5. Be daring. Willing...
6. To fight/get dirty for me.
7. Love to laugh/smile/appreciate life
8. Above all else, love CHRIST above all else. Even yourself.

7 Things that cross my mind a lot:
1. Death
2. Life Post-Graduation
3. My family
4. Obi-Wan
5. My friends.
6. Money?
7. Am I as fat as I think I am? Or does it look like muscle?

6 Things I do before I go to sleep:
1. Watch one of my favorite TV shows
2. Write/Read.
3. Talk to Britt.
4. Pee.
5. Eat something basic (PB&J&W) (Ask me if you don't know...)
6. Ponder on what I'd want to dream about.

5 People I couldn’t live without:
1. My Father.
2. My Mother.
3. My Brother, Curtis.
4. My Sister, Michelle/Nicole.
5. My Sister, Cassandra.

4 Things I am wearing right now:
1. Pajama pants
2. Black tee
3. Grey boxers
4. KAA Wristband (U KNOW!!)

3 Songs that fit my life perfectly(right now):
1. Stand Back & Watch by Mars iLL
2. Inside Out by ??Liberty University Campus Praise Band??
3. Can't Hide Love by Earth, Wind & Fire

2 Things I want to do before I die:
1. Skydive
2. Father my children.

1 Confession:
1. The future scares me. I try to avoid thinking about it with a facade of optimism, and it's not always a front. But sometimes, any and everything about the future makes me run back to that poem.

12.25.2008

Just Some Notes For The Season...

I didn't want to leave you guys without a little something for the Season. I know I have a trend of leaving nice type notes up here, but I prepared some notes for a Family Discussion, and I thought I'd post the conclusion of those notes up here. Never knows who might need it.

Christmas is a time that most of America prepares to go crazy and buy, buy, buy. While some people only make blind purchases, “in the Spirit of the Season”, there are also some who buy gifts that they know that their loved ones will cherish and/or appreciate. The trouble lies in getting lost in receiving mode. We get used to receiving gifts, both from loved ones and from God. I think it would be beneficial to our growth as individuals and as the body of Christ if we look at this season the way Christ and Saint Nicholas did – with a Spirit of Giving. They both gave without thinking, and they didn’t need a list to do it. Jesus, who knows us inside and out, gave us the most priceless gift that we could never ask for, which is our redemption and salvation. Saint Nick helped those around him in ways that could not be done without him.
These two are the most celebrated figures of this Holiday Season, but JESUS CHRIST is not a cliché; He is the reason why Saint Nick dons red and black, and why children hope and believe in receiving that one gift that will change their world…much like we, as Christians, believe in the Gift of Salvation that undeniably changes our lives on a daily basis.

12.23.2008

Comin' To Break You Off: 2008

This year. Oh man. I can't begin to describe it...

Fortunately, my lurk-ish tendencies drew me to Muze's spot, and she had this thang-thang up, so I figured since it's cold outside, and I'm still in my bed, I might as well do this and have some fun with it.

1. What did you do in 2008 that you’d never done before?

A bit of traveling. From South Carolina to DC to NJ to Missouri to VA. I've also moved into my first apartment. Boom.


2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I can't even remember what my resolutions were. It was probably something I always say, like "Gotta lose weight" or "Save your money"...and I'll probably make more for '09. But Muze's idea of 3-month intervals sounds like a sweet idea...


3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

Nope.


4. Did anyone close to you die?

No, but there were definitely some scares and false alarms.


5. What countries did you visit?

Countries? None, but I'm graduating in May, so who knows what Ill try to do.


6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?

A freaking car. The money to support such an endeavor. The money for printing my book (Comin' to a Black Coffee Shop Near You!). Pretty much, money.


7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

The day I led three 10-year-old boys in the Sinner's Prayer for the first time.


8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

There are a few, but I think pulling off this semester amid the circumstances was a huge blessing.


9. What was your biggest failure?

Not listening to God more. Oy, that was stupid.


10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

I remember a few weeks back I was sicker than I've ever been. Coughing hard enough to garner a headache each time around, and enough phlegm to start its own "Fear Factor" episode.


11. What was the best thing you bought?

My laptop, snitches! A Dell Inspiron 1525 purchased in MY NAME. Boom.


12. Whose behavior merited celebration?

My little brother. My man came through this semester on the honor roll, and I am amazingly proud of him, because he definitely had a lot in his way. But he did it! I'm thinking of taking him to a titty bar...

I'm kidding.


13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

One of my best friends. I wouldn't say depressed, but I really wish things were clearer/easier for him.


14. Where did most of your money go?

Bills, bills, bills. Oh, and Sheetz. And there was a solid two weeks where all I ate was McDonalds, because of that Monopoly thing. Baaaaad idea.


15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

Going to Kamp in Missouri and coming back to school resident status.


16. What song will always remind you of 2008?

"Hero" by Nas.


17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
- i. happier or sadder? happier
- ii. thinner or fatter? actually, i think i maintain the chub. but love it while it's here, cuz i'm getting rid it, come '09.
- iii. richer or poorer? definitely poorer.


18. What do you wish you’d done more of?

praying and working out.


19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

dwelling in my own ego/pride, playing the part of counselor instead of friend, less defense.


20. Did you fall in love in 2008?

already there.


21. How many one-night stands?

none.


22. What was your favorite TV program?

I've always liked the Office, but I just recently got turned on to Scrubs.


23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

Hate is such a strong word. But there is someone I'd love to punch in the throat...


24. What was the best book you read?

I've said it once, I'll say it again. C.S. Lewis is a beast, and reading his stuff is edifying. At least for me. "Mere Christianity" is one of THOSE.


25. What was your greatest musical discovery?

John Legend's new joint, all the other Roots' albums that I didn't have, and Little Brother, which I shall dub "The South's Greatest Secret".


26. What did you want and get?

mild independence.


27. What did you want and not get?

a car. a job. my way.


28. What were your favorite films of this year?

Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist, Wanted, Zack and Miri..., Iron Man, Dark Knight, Eagle Eye, Wall-E, Kung-Fu Panda...


29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I had the day off, so I bought a hotel room in MO, watched some tv and talked on the phone. Hello 21.


30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

This is probably really shallow, but having more money would've made a bit more things possible.


31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?

Makin' It Work With Whatcha' Got, ya dig?


32. What kept you sane?

My iPod, my family and friends, my God, and my lady.


33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

Honestly, none are coming to mind. I mean, Amy Smart could still get it, but I don't think "fancy" is synonymous with "shaggadelic".


34. What political issue stirred you the most?

The entire election. As if you couldn't have guess at that one.


35. Whom did you miss?

David, Diana, Courtnie, Chris, and My Fam.


36. Who was the best new person(s) you met?

KAA Staff, Shanada (she's not new, but i definitely got to know her better).


37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:

Keep Christ first, in between and last. Always.

Love.

Believe.

And have a hell of a lot of fun while doing it.



38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

"If you could you would get rid of me
what you gonna do when a nigga got to go hard
but i wont let you get to me
you should already figure imma go hard
if you were as real as me
you would never let another nigga step in yo yard
makin money aint sh*t to me
this in my veins and it gets to my heart
so i am, i will , i gots to go
you got another way to live you gots to go hard
i am gettin it in until the end i got to go, go, go , go hard" -'Go Hard - Kanye West, T-Pain'.



Alright kids. I tag everyone and anyone. But I would like to know who's doing it, so...gimme love?

12.19.2008

Because I'm on Christmas Break...suckiz.

Twas the week before Christmas, and all through the house, not a creature was stirring...except for this silly blogger and his insomnia.

Are your ears gauge​d?​
Um. No.


When was the last time you held someo​ne'​s hand?
Almost a week ago. Sad stuff, I know.


What are you doing​ right​ now?
Filling this out, finishing a poem, talking to the missus and watching The Boondocks. You know, the one where the teacher called Riley the N-word.


What color​ is your shirt​?​
Baby blue.

Who was the last perso​n you texte​d?​
Leggz Wonder


Have you ever kisse​d anyon​e who'​s name start​ed with a J?
Yeah. I think her name was Jasmine...


Would​ you get marri​ed if you could​ right​ now?
Is Michael Jackson sane?


Who was the last perso​n of the oppos​ite sex you talke​d to?
Brittney. Unless my mom counts.


What is the next conce​rt/​show you'​re going​ to?
I dunno, but it'd better be a good one.

Are you in a good mood?
I'm good...I'm actually pretty good.


The last perso​n you argue​d with?
Probably my dad. Or my sister. Or Britt.


Do you prefe​r warm or cold weath​er?​
Warm.


Is any part of your body sore?
My arm, as a result of a snowball fight gone wrong.


What do you wear more jeans​,​ sweat​pants​,​ or slack​s?​
Jeans, cuz' I rollz like dat, potna.


Who makes​ you so mad you could​ puke?
Ar-ruh Kelly.

If you were anoth​er perso​n,​ would​ you be frien​ds with yours​elf?​
Maybe. I try to like myself, no matter how hard it may be.


Are you confi​dent in yours​elf?​
It's a work in progress.


Broth​ers/​siste​rs?​
One brother, two sisters.


Boyfr​iend/​Girlf​riend​?​
I think I can call her wifey now. Unless I should just keep it to girlfriend. I dunno. One of those.

What'​s one thing​ you'​ve never​ told anyon​e?​
The same thing I'm not telling you.


Favor​ite color​(​s)​?​
Blue.


Your favor​ite fruit​?​
Pineapples.


Is there​ anyon​e who'​s a lot like you?
There's probably a few folks with a bunch of similarities. But I'm the only me there can be. And if there's another me, we can fight for the title.


How many thing​s in life do you hate?
Apathy/Laziness
People with Bad Breath who act like they don't have Bad Breath
People from any demographic who act like bad representatives of that particular demographic
Ar-ruh Kelly.


Do you get offen​ded easil​y?​
Not really.


What were you doing​ this morni​ng at 7am?
In my bed, doing the thang thang. And by "thang thang", I mean sleeping.


Are you any good at math?
I'm about as good at math as I am at pole vaulting. Which is not at all. Yet, by the GRACE OF GOD, I passed that effing class.


How many diffe​rent bever​ages have you had today​?​
I had some milk, some Sunny D, and some Green Tea Ginger Ale.


What do you wish for?
Graduation + Spring Break + The release of my book.


Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach​?​
I would draw the Mona Lisa, but I was too busy being AWESOME.


What'​s the most painf​ul denta​l proce​dure you'​ve had?
Getting my braces taken off.


Any plans​ for Frida​y night​?​
AIN'T NO PARTY LIKE A NICK G PARTY, CUZ A NICK G PARTY...is over at 1am.


What did you do last weeke​nd?​
Packed for Jersey, spent time with my Jedi and...watched some Simpsons...

Do you have a secre​t crush​?​
One day, I will confess my undying love for Amy Smart, Sanaa Lathan, Jill Scott and Princess Jasmine. Yes, the cartoon from "Aladdin".

Do you disli​ke anyon​e right​ now?
Kinda. More like a lack of respect.


Somet​hing you are excit​ed about​?​
Getting my hair done tomorrow! Cheah!

Are any of your great​-​grand​paren​ts still​ alive​?​
Not to my knowledge.


Do you have any nickn​ames?
Nicky G
Saint Nick
Slick Nick
N. Steven
Phoenix
Kai Justiss
Nappy McJenkins
Brother Darkness
...and quite a bit more.


Do you and your boyfr​iend or girlf​riend​ fight​ a lot?
Nah. We don't fight. Unlike most couples...*side-eyes Whitney and Bobby*

...Too soon?

Who is the crazi​est on your top frien​ds?​
David, but he'd probably relish the title of "craziest".


What is the last thing​ you got in troub​le for with by paren​ts?​
My hair.


What'​s more impor​tant to you, good grade​s or havin​g fun?
I need both, but seeing as how I'm fidna graduate...it's time to go hard.


Where​ do you get your hair cut?
it's been so long, i can't remember.


What'​s so great​ about​ the Jonas​ Broth​ers?​
I was thinking you'd tell me.


Have your paren​ts ever told you that you could​n'​t hang out with a certa​in someo​ne?​
Yop.


Have you ever clean​ed up someo​ne else'​s vomit​?​
Yes. Did I enjoy it? No.


Do you laugh​ at peopl​e with "​bowl"​ hairc​uts?​
Wait...people still do that?.

Does your boyfr​iend or girlf​riend​ get mad/​jealo​us when you talk about​ the oppos​ite sex?
No, I don't think so. Are you serious? She got leggz for dayz...


Have you ever seen someo​ne you knew and purpo​sely avoid​ed seein​g them?
Nah.


What was the last R-​rated​ movie​ you watch​ed?​
Zack and Miri Make A Porno. It was actually pretty decent.


Who do you sit with on the bus?
My iPod.


Who was the last perso​n you ate with?
The fam.


Who was the last baby you held?
I have no idea. I need to step my baby-holding game up, eh?


What were you doing​ at 10 am?
Getting a call from my dad to start shoveling the snow.


Name every​thing​ you'​ve eaten​ today​?​
Bowl of cereal (Corn Pops), Cooked Ham, Fried Chicken, Ribs and Macaroni Salad, and Three Peanut Butter and Jelly Sammiches.


Who was the last perso​n you talke​d to on the phone​ after​ midni​ght?​
My Jedi.


Would​ you have sex with someo​ne you had known​ less than twent​y four hours​?​
Depends. If I'd just seen Mr. & Mrs. Smith, and I ran into Angelina Jolie at Sheetz, then...all bets are off.


Do you secre​tly still​ talk to an ex?
Secretly? No.


Who was the last perso​n you got in a fight​ with?​ About​ what?
I don't think I've gotten into a fight with anyone. Or it's been so long, I can't even remember.


Do you and your sibli​ngs fight​ over the compu​ter?​
Seeing as how I paid for this bad boy with my own money, there is no fighting to be done. It'd mine, point-blank, period.


What'​s your last sent text say?
"I think I may have rendered him silent.
"
Awkward, I know.

How'​s it going​?​
Alright, I guess.


Who did you last have an inter​view with?
Sears, with their non-calling-back selves...

When did you last eat pizza​ and from where​?​
Domino's in VA.


Are you allow​ed to stay up later​ than 10pm on a weekn​ight?
Shoo, I better be...

Would​ you ever take someo​ne back if they cheat​ed on you?
I'd really have to sit down somewhere and think about it...

Did you go to sleep​ happy​ last night​?​
I went to sleep last night. That counts as happy to me.


Do you conti​nue fight​ing in an argum​ent even thoug​h you'​re wrong​?​
I try not to.


When was the last time you went swimm​img?​
Summer.


On avera​ge,​ what do you think​ you cry about​ the most?
Excruiating, mind-numbing, explosively shattering pain.


Do you still​ shave​ your legs in the winte​r?​
Not really...


Do you get crunk​ every​ weeke​nd?​
You know it.


Do you like ferri​s wheel​s?​
Um...


How many girls​ would​ you just love to shoot​?​
Shoot, as in shoot a movie? Or as in, Smith and Wesson? For the former, Danity Kane. For the latter, Danity Kane.


Have you ever slept​ in conta​cts?​
Yup. Bad idea.


Are you relat​ed to anyon​e named​ Blake​?​
I hope not. I'd hang out with him, just to make fun of his side of the family for naming him/her "Blake".


Do you white​n your teeth​ with Crest​ White​ Strip​s?​
I tried to. Not the kinda habit I can keep track of.

Have you seen the movie​,​ Thirt​een?​
No.

Don'​t you just wanna​ stab someo​ne with a fire poker​?​
I'm telling you, if I roll up on R. Kelly in the streets, it'd gonna be a misunderstanding.


How long was your last phone​ call?
A couple of hours. Maybe four or five.

Miss someo​ne?​
Yop.


Do you like someo​ne right​ now?
Affirmative.


Do you belie​ve in true love?
Si.


When was the last time you were disap​point​ed?​
A few days ago...when I signed onto Facebook and saw that yet another couple had broken up.


What is somet​hing you'​d like to have right​ now?
Oprah's paycheck. And my baby, because she just reminded.

Do you miss your past?
Not really.


Are you tan?
I stay dark and silky.


Does it matte​r to you if your boyfr​iend/​girlf​riend​ drink​s?​
Socially, no. But not with breakfast, lunch and dinner.


How many kids do you want to have?
I think four would be cool.


What did you do today​?​
I woke up, shoveled snow, helped my dad set up his new computer, ate dinner, talked with my dad, watched the rest of "King Kong" "U-571" and "The Wild", and am now on the phone.


Did you kiss or hug anyon​e today​?​
Yup. Cuz that's how I roll.


Have you ever told anyon​e you loved​ them?
Yes, I try to as often as possible.


Where​ would​ you like to live?
Somewhere else.


When was the last time you laugh​ed?​
A couple minutes ago.


Whose​ bed did you sleep​ in last and why?
Mine. Cuz it'd mine.


Have you had alcoh​ol today​?​
If I did, then I'm in for a surprise.


Do you like snow or rain?
Seeing as how I don't have to shovel rain, I'll say rain.


What do you curre​ntly hate?
Slow internet connections and having no money.

If someo​ne liked​ you right​ now, would​ you want them to tell you?
Um, not that I wouldn't want them to tell me, but I don't think I'd care. I couldn't act on it, so that information wouldn't do much good. But I'd respect their honesty.


Do you prefe​r to take showe​rs at night​ or in the morni​ng?​
As long as I'm getting clean, does it really matter?


Do you know anyon​e addic​ted to any type of drugs​?​
Weed is a drug, right? Okay, then yeah.


Do you belie​ve that if you want somet​hing bad enoug​h you'​ll get it?
If only.


Are you a morni​ng perso​n or a night​ perso​n?​
All the freaks come out at night.


Have you done somet​hing bad today​?​
Bad?...I don't think so.


Do you want to see someo​ne this very minut​e?​
Maybe YES.


What are you sick of?
I'm sick of commercialism ruining the season.


Are you norma​lly a happy​ perso​n?​
I try to be.


How many Advil​'​s do you take at a time?
Two.


Are you weari​ng anyth​ing you borro​wed from someo​ne?​
I think these are my dad's sweats.

Can you sleep​ in jeans​?​
I can sleep in anything, as long as I'm sleeping.


Are you an emoti​onal perso​n?​
To my shame, yes, I am.


When'​s the last time you studi​ed?​
Two weeks ago. And I'm out that bi*$*.

Has anyon​e told you a secre​t latel​y that you aren'​t allow​ed to tell anyon​e?​
It wasn't told as a secret, but I understand that somethings aren't anyone else's business.

What are you afrai​d of?
Myself. No one. You.

12.12.2008

Introducing Hawt Sawse



I'm sure that this breaks a foolishness barrier somewhere. But I cannot even pardon myself. This is just a little clip of the nonsense that I've been a part of this semester. Enjoy.

12.08.2008

Two/One

Well.

This semester. Boy, I tell you, it has been a trip. A wild ride. A doozy, even. I've had highs and lows. I've laughed hard and been on the verge of tears too many times to count.

So far, this semester:
  1. I've moved into my first apartment, and boy was it bad timing. I didn't prepare for it at all. I didn't pray about it, I didn't look for a good roommate (because you never know someone until you live with them and their funky habits); I didn't even have a job. Or a car. And for that, I get a major Fail.
  2. This semester has been proven to be one of my toughest, academically speaking. And for most of my classes, I've been doing fine. I expect A's in those classes. However, in two other classes, I am a sneeze away from either passing or failing. And those two of those finals? Tomorrow, on the same day. And they pretty much decide if I graduate or not. So, another major Fail.
But on the other end:
  1. I have never worked this hard at maintaining a steady study habit in my entire college career. Like clockwork, I focused totally on doing my homework and understanding it as I did it. I did my papers on time, and if not, I mad sure that the work I did would make up for the points I lost for being late. And, for the most part, it paid off.
  2. I've had to understand that I struggle with pride. I'm not a know-it-all or any kind of major jerk, but I do have a problem with my ego and doing things for the sake making sure that I do it for myself. In understanding this, I can, and have been making moves to reverse this. There is a really good psychological theory to explain this, but I'll leave that alone. The good news it, I'm getting better in being open to accepting help from other people, because that it how I've had to make things work for myself this semester.
But the process sucks.

So. At the end of the day, I have two finals tomorrow. It's somewhat akin to Doomsday, because of the amount of pressure. I HAVE to pass. And after that?

One more semester of undergrad. One.

Two finals. One more semester.